whitenoiseblackknight:

calamity-bean:

I am not yours to command!

(tags by @notbecauseofvictories)
#you know sometimes when you watch something and your brain goes ‘PING’#it’s not a loud ping necessarily but it /rings/ because whatever you’re watching has hit That Inexplicable Spot#where you keep all your Stuff#…………….you
know. your Stuff. all those hangups and feelings anphrases and formless
images that dictate what it is you really enjoy.#you
keep all the Stuff in a certain part of your brain and when a piece of
media finds that place with unerring terrible accuracy#it makes a PING noise. like a pinball in a machine.#whelp this is my Stuff and when I watched it my whole BODY went ping#he
hates her so much. he hates her with that singular obsessive telescopic
focus that burns in his gut and he lies awake at night#thinking about how much he hates her#listening
to her fuck his master through the walls and aching with how much he
hates her. how much he loathes her treatment of him.#(she’s
a whore and his family has served the family loyally for generations.
yet she’s the one who gets to speak to him like a dog.#he’s the one who must endure her crude wit. her games. her manipulations. her wasteful spending. her drunkenness.#and in turn she seems to regard his spite as an amusing game and commands him like she is his lady and not his lord’s whore.)#(meanwhile charlotte has known what games men play since she was twelve. she is no stranger to haxby’s ilk.#men relegate women to child-bearers and cock-minders and then resent them when women are not grateful enough for it#she
is not grateful. she resents them right back. and she knows that haxby
will be there long after she is gone. but she is not gone.#until
she is she will treat him like her dog and her servant and dare him to
say anything; do anything because she knows he hates her#and the lines between hate & lustful desire & desire for domination are thin and smudged as chalk)#………………..anyway I watch harlots now! it’s a fun show about power and sex work and misery and family#and also how much women have—in all times in all places—been subject to the whims of men#so you know it’s a fun family-friendly show