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Eternal Sunrise – penhales – Tanz der Vampire – Steinman/Kunze [Archive of Our Own]
For anyone who struggles to read on my blog due to the light text against black background: the AO3 version!
Eternal Sunrise – penhales – Tanz der Vampire – Steinman/Kunze [Archive of Our Own]
ALRIGHT so I was supposed to write a ficlet for an anon back in December about Krolfred dancing all night at the Mitternachtsball, long after all of their guests left, and life got very busy as I left to go home for a week. TLDR; I didn’t finish it.
So, for you, I went ahead and tried my hand at completing it. They don’t dance all night, but I thought it might be nice to catch them in a meaningful moment at the end of all of the festivities. I hope you like it!
A cold, late night wind filtered through the cracks of
the ancient slate-grey walls of Schloss von Krolock, just before the clock
struck the first hour of the early morning. The pale and beautiful faces of the
Mitternachtsball began to dwindle, one by one, drifting like loose dandelion
seeds back to their guest chambers.
The ball had been different that year. December 21st,
the night of the solstice, as it had been since the first ball, four hundred
years and counting. However, as the other balls had been grand celebrations of
blood sacrifice, willing or not, the 405th Mitternachtsball held a
highly dissonant tone by comparison to balls long past.
No living guests wandered the labyrinthine halls, and
no hellish monsters gorged themselves on mortal blood. Each guest was to arrive
having eaten beforehand, to gather within the palace walls as civil, orderly,
presentable undead nobles. The new Consort had seen to that. The first four
balls at which he’d attempted the change in tradition were all rough, and
sometimes the guests even took to feeding on each other, but he’d known it
would take on the fifth try. He’d applied his skilled hand and entirely devoted
himself to the improvement of the castle itself, to repairing the guest accommodations,
replacing the heavy curtains that kept them all alive, and even to reorganizing
the feeding schedules and methods.
The new Consort was a busy dead man, indeed.
In return, the Count had dedicated the 405th
Mitternachtsball in his honor. Gold and moss green decorations replaced the
typical black and silver that haunted the massive ballroom, lending a light and
a life that none of the ball guests had yet witnessed in their un-lifetimes. The
tall, arching windows were left uncovered to reveal the vast forest and clear
sky. It was fortunate weather, and good weather was to be taken as an omen for
the rest of the year’s feedings. The Consort did not understand this tradition
and insisted that it was likely not linked to scientific thought. The Count
maintained that it was their one
tradition they had kept since the beginning, and they would continue to keep it
until time ran dry. The Consort was not amused, but understood it was harmless
enough.
The ball went off with few hitches, but the Viscount
ensured that such interruptions were dealt with swiftly and easily. It was
difficult to pursue argument against a fellow with half as fierce of a wit and
with half as decorous of an outfit, let alone the glittering, fire-spitting
beast that was the Viscount that night. Between a Chaconne and a Minuet, the
Viscount could be seen casting a watchful eye around the ballroom, daring any
guest to break from the decorum and earn his wrath. A performance comprised of equal
shares of theater and terror; a quality all Mitternachtsballs were required to
feature. The theatrics, too, came to a close, and like the loose leaves that
had fled the trees some months ago, the Viscount joined the ranks of the
enchanted undead, retiring to his glamorous bower.
The Consort stood for some time after the departure of
their guests, watching the sky for the first signs of the new day. For them,
the birth of the new year. Like a rich, deep blue velvet dotted with crystals, the sky gave
no sign of the swiftly ending year.
“My dear, perhaps it is time
that we too take our leave.”
They were the last of the revelers, the orchestra having
taken their exit some time ago.
“I believe I should like
to watch, this time.”
The Count could not deny the Consort anything that was
asked of him, having once promised to provide anything that the Consort might
require, and the Consort required a reminder of the life that he had been forced
to sacrifice. Such a request could not go unanswered, much less unsatisfied.
“Of
course, Alfred.”
Like two carved stone likenesses, they stood, watching
for signs of the rising star before the vast window, the last window that
remained uncovered.
“What
a privilege it is-”
The Consort murmured,
“-to
never tire of this.”
The darkness lightened from a never ending deep blue to
an amethyst glow, framing the beauty of the trees and catching the reflective
white of the snow. The Count cast his eyes down and away, but the Consort watched
the purple and grey give way to gold, highlighting the golden accents adorning
the ballroom still. At long last the Count joined the Consort once more,
watching the great star threaten to become visible just above the line of the
mountains, and then he turned his gaze to the sun-gold curls of his partner in
undeath.
Even after four hundred and five years, the Count
supposed that it was true.
He never could tire of watching the dawn.
and gentle snowfall
sinks into our hearts; ice-cold limbs
and freezing, blue hands, yet
the curve of your mouth
is always living red.you bring my wrist to it,
as tender as hearth fire —
and the mirth in your eyes flowers,
turning the iris summer-green,
like leaves in sunlight.and in that moment i love you:
infinite, infinite, infinite,
the heart of me stretching endless
like the gossamer sky, my soul
pale moon-become.
give me an eternity of you,
pour your soul over mine.
what kind of precipitation is wetter, snow or rain ???
seriously tho holy fuck. they’re both so deprived in so many different ways !!!
krolock is starved in the way that he’s loved and lost. he knows what its like to be in love and to truly adore a person and want them with you forever – and even past that initial infatuation. he’s been married. he knows what its like to devote yourself to a person – and he doesn’t have that anymore. so he fucking aches for it bc he knows what it feels like and he needs to feel it again
but alfred has absolutely no experience at all. he barely has experience having friends. like my favorite bg for alfred is that he had a pretty stable, full family – second youngest black sheep of a decently successful middle-class family with emotionally distant parents. alfred’s friends are books and like 3 professors at the university of königsberg and that’s basically it – but BOY is he a hopeless romantic. he loves fairy tales and romance stories and he cries when people talk about their weddings. by the time tanz rolls around he’s thinking about settling down (”fur ein leben lang?” baby u met sarah TEN MINUTES AGO) and probably having kids and god he wants to be in love so badly
and like – they both have some outlets of affection. krolock has herbert, his darling boy, the moon in his sky, for whom he would do literally anything. they have a great relationship (when they’re not partaking in isolation and self-destructive behavior, which i could talk about all day but will Refrain From, For Now) and support each other… decently well. as much as an undead father and son can. and alfred has abronsius who, for all his faults and weird hangups, i truly do think loves alfred! alfred is his favorite student, he trusts alfred with his work even when he’s being a big baby or forgetting where the damn heart is. abronsius even lauds his academic prowess in-text – but like ! that’s not enough. that’s not nearly enough for two full-grown men, nevermind two very attention-starved full-grown men.
give these boys hugs & friends & a mutually satisfying domestic and supportive romantic relationship. thanks for coming to my ted talk
oh boy have i ever
so okay. this is a bunch of stuff extrapolated from a lot of weepy late-night conversations with @penhales about our beautiful beautiful boys, but –
early in the course of their relationship, after they’ve started sleeping together but before they’ve really talked about it (bc as much as they enjoy each other’s company, i definitely think they’d be more inclined to form a physical relationship before a truly romantic one, because Anxiety and Commitment Issues and Sex is Easier, particularly for krolock), alfred wakes up just as the sun has gone down & while krolock’s still asleep
and its the first time alfred’s really seen him properly vulnerable since that night in the crypt – because alfred’s already seen krolock asleep, and that was when he was holding a stake the wrong way round over his goddamn heart. this is a moment, for both of them, even if krolock isn’t conscious for it. he trusts alfred enough to be asleep around him, even with alfred having come so close to literally murdering him
so alfred’s just laying there, in the lamplight, watching krolock. maybe his hair has started to come out of its braid, maybe there’s stubble on his cheeks, maybe his eyelids are twitching because he’s in the middle of a dream, and alfred doesn’t see the Graf von Krolock or a vampire lord – just. a man. a father, a widow, someone alfred’s been intimate with, and maybe – maybe someone he wants to be with for a really long time. maybe forever.
(also krolock snores when he sleeps on his back, and there’s the tea)
To: @robot_romance_guy
From: Jainasherself / @jainas-art
Fandom: Tanz der Vampire
Notes: Hi, I hope you enjoy this Krolock/Alfred Tanz fanart! Happy holidays!
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All Through The Night – Sleeping At Last
I am in love with a monster. A thing so hated to the bone simply for its mystery. Monsters are beings one fears for its own ugliness, yet I love a thing so beautiful and rare it must be hideous to anyone else but me. It wages wars and beats its chest and mutters just to hear its echo, and I can feel an anger deep within him that sends shudders down my spine, as if my brain and my heart were two disconnected entities. The tremor of fear and the tremor of love are not so different, it seems.
YOU’RE JUST SENDING ME THIS BECAUSE YOU THINK I’LL WRITE SOMETHING FOR YOU.
Hint: I will. Hang tight and we’ll see what I can do. 😉