Tag: personal

me: *is having trouble coping as an adult in the working world*

me: *tries to sink into fantasy worlds as a means of escape*

me: *isn’t working on important shit i should be trying to work on because the world revolves around my going back to school eventually and trying to do that out of my home state sucks*

me: *is tempted to just give up and move home even though that would somehow suck immensely more than the challenging spot i’m in right now*

me: *is using humorous chat form to describe feelings of great discomfort because i’m too bothered by them to clearly state them in a different way*

i’m pretty sure my general manager is evil. 10 hours on my feet in two days, followed by two more full nights of work, effectively erasing any weekend i could have had. sounds like i’m getting trashed after work on Friday. 

omfg there are some people that give me the most crippling anxiety when they leave me on “read”…………………………………………………………………………………………………………

None of the professional musicians from home will talk to me and I’m already assuming it’s because I want nothing to do with certain people who can’t be fucking professional and prey on young female musicians but it’s all dismissed because people just like him for some reason

It’s. It’s because he’s a sociopath and they do that. They make themselves likable even when they’re not, that’s the point. They have no power if you don’t like them.

I’m just so lonely here right now. I have to wait until sept 1st before I can even think about joining in town activities so I’m just stuck like this. BF doesn’t understand my strong desire to talk to SOMEONE at the end of my day simply because he gets to see the people he wants when he wants to. He gets a peer group and friends automatically with school. I get coworkers that I love and are ultimately cool, but they’re not peers and they don’t replace having friends my own age. So all I can do is feel sad and like it’s unfair. Boo.